[evil-G-nius]

Its hard for me for a number of reasons. I was a computer engineer on Wall Street and was working with a contracting company for Salomon Smith Barney & Citigroup. I happened to get laid off almost a month to the day before the tragedy. What makes this so hard for me is that my train let out at the WTC, my company's main office was in tower 1 on the 77th floor, I took Windows Server classes there every week, one of my client's was in 7WTC...I was there in & about every single day! I know people I used to see, speak to & say hi to in passing may not be with us anymore. I believe a guy I went to high school with passed away and I personally know people that know people that died that day too. I tell myself I probably would have been fine, I probably would have been in the satellite office on Wall Street by the time the planes hit but who knows. I could have been running late, I could have been called for a different assignement that day. All I know is when I was laid off I was upset, but in hind sight my guardian angel was just getting a head start for me. It is extremely hard for me to watch coverage or even hear about it...I just can't bring myself to watch anymoe. I saw enough when it happened. I also feel bad because a friend of mine's birthday is on 9/11! SMDH